1/28/2006 08:44:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|Ugh. Hell week is over. Thank you Lord for helping me survive the dreadful exams, the mind-twisting problems, the piercing stares of the people who hate me, and the endless issues for the week. Please help me again to survive the impact I will receive when the results come out. So much for relying on stock knowledge, I just hope I pass. Studying before a quarterly exam is not good. Nuh-uh. Definitely not good. Oh well, the 4th quarter's my last shot... OUR last shot to prove ourselves. *sighs* Todo karir na 'to! Haha. Magpapaka-GC na ako. Within the reach of reality & possibility, I'll try as hard as I can. LABO. So, what happened during the week? Nothing much, except that Albert's house-birthday party last tuesday (Jan 24) totally was the bomb!!! Imagine, on such short notice, 95% of the senior batch was able to make it. Magimbita daw ba naman kasi ng biglaan? Haha. Buti nalang... sagot nya ung transpo. Then the next day, January 25, Carla, Nicole, Bea, Mae, Josh & me hanged out at Nicole's crib. *ehem* Nothing much happened, we just had a few talks wherein a serious confession & a question was made, watched a movie... 'If Only'... how weird... Josh & I were laughing while Nicole was starting to burst into tears because of the movie... Yes, that's how weird we can get. The elocutions was moved to the 13th. Feb 13th. Coolness. Fantabulous.|W|P|113841002987613438|W|P|GC stands for Grade Conscious|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com1/22/2006 01:44:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|So there's this big issue among the seniors & unfortunately, some juniors knew. (Wait, is it 'some'? or 'all'?) So now, I smell tension in the air, or maybe something more than that. Gah. Whatever I'm gonna put in here now & surely, you're gonna read maybe rude and too vulgar for you, and no, I'm not going to censor any names. Everyone deserves to know who's who. Whatever happened was just for plain harmless fun. Nothing more, nothing less. So what? Yes. We kissed. French kissed. We didn't force Josh to do that. He did that willingly. So what's your issue now? We didn't want anyone to know, not even the other seniors and more so, the lower batches. Unfortunately, because of the BIVOUAC, the secret got out among us, the seniors. I don't know how, and I don't care, all I know is that it's out. What surprised me even more is when you and your batchmates knew about it. So now, you totally hate my guts for what happened. No, wait, you hate our guts. You feel betrayed. I know. I'm sorry for keeping a secret like that to you. We thought that it would be for the extreme good. We didn't want you to get hurt. More so, affect your relationship with Josh. Then again, everything took an extreme turn for the worse. If you think that Josh left you for me, think again. You might be right, or you might be wrong. We'll never know, won't we? Go ahead, say whatever you want. I'm just letting out all my opinion here. My advice? Leave the 4th year business to the 4th years. I was surpised when X told Dianne one version of the story, and more so when I've learned from Dana the version of the story that spread among the 4Bs... Gawd. How imaginative can they get? It's so far from the truth. It's become more of a fallacy, instead of a fact. Isn't that's what issues are about anyway? I talked to Carla about this, and you know what she said? Gaaaahhhh. How carefree can that woman get?! "Don't you want that? At least you're popular!" -spoken in vernacular. Oh puuuhhh-leeaaase. Notorious, more like. In other news, I have a new layout. Isn't that obvious? Maybe not if you're new here or if you rarely visit my blog. Another one of the fruits of my boredom. Blah. Desi's the extreme asshole. Don't get me wrong, I don't love the guy anymore. It's just that I was shocked. It was just like last week he told me he still loves me & now he's with another girl... AGAIN! Gah. Strike 2 for a patch. Dude, you totally piss the hell out of me. DIIIIEEEE ASSHOLE! FUCK YOU! YOU DEFINE 'ASSHOLE' AT ITS FINEST. HELL COULD USE MORE OF YOUR KIND, YOU KNOW. Ok, that was emotionally driven. Pfft. Kuya Migo has been telling me that he'll just do me no good. That he's a wolf in an asshole's clothing... But did I listen?!?! FRIGGIN NOOOOO. Oh well. I've learned my lesson now. Milk the hell out of rich guys before they use you for their personal gain. Orite. 'nuff said. Exam week is up. I havn't reviewed yet. Whoohoo! Go me! *Ehem. Bato-bato sa langit, tama'y wag magalit. Alam kong hindi na dapat ako gumanti and everything, pero during instances such as *ehem* THIS, ang mga ganito ay hindi dapat hindi pinapansin, kundi hindi dapat pinapalagpas. *|W|P|113791152176848103|W|P|Kinda confidential, but what the hell|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com1/16/2006 09:14:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|Things havn't exactly been going "well" lately. I can feel things taking a 180-degree turn for the worse. With a few months left before graduation, my batchmates are having misunderstandings. Plus, ISSUES popping out here & there. So, all together, it's not good. All my hardwork for nothing. Sure, I passed my university of choice & -humility aside- I am the only one in our batch (as of now) who qualified for Ateneo De Manila University, BUT (here's a big 'BUT') my parents were like... "Bakit? Dun ka ba namin gusto magaral?" and I was like.. "EH un ung dream school ko! pinanalangin ko na pumasa ako dun!" ... And they were like... "Eh hindi un ung pangarap namin eh! Gusto namin sa UP ka!" Initial Reaction: WHAT THE FUCK?! Gusto nyo sa UP?! KAYO MAGARAL DUN. ASA PA KAYONG PAPASA AKO DUN NOH. But of course, those words never escaped my mouth. They were only spoken aloud, in my mind. Parang nabale wala lahat. Why is it like that? Why does it have to be like that? the people who are your parents, the ones who should be supporting you & helping you achieve your dream, are/can be the biggest obstacle you have to overcome.|W|P|113741789701915729|W|P|If I feel this way, I can drown in the weight of it all|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com1/07/2006 07:42:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|My previous post was deleted and it contained all the information, and I'm now too lazy to retype everything. Went Food tripping with Madel, Mika, Johann & Mae yesterday... Sa turo-turo. Sus, kala ko pa naman sa Jollibee and the like. Whoa... CAT today. Received an uneven arm skin tone from the sun (right arm seems darker than left arm). Went to Garbi's place to get her Food Tech ntbk (gonna copy her notes cause I lost my ntbk). SA seniors vs LP seniors -basketball game. According to Yani, the LP seniors won. Whoohoo! We so suck. Pratices for the TPR at Crame will start next Saturday... if things go as planned. Prom - Feb 18... still tentative though. TPR -March 4... still tentative . Elocutions -Feb 4. Gah. Graduation? When? In other news... Assuming that this site doesn't give people crap, then I'd say I passed DLSU. Assuming that what Ate Ana's blog contains is true, then I'd say I passed ADMU. Let's all wait for the status letter from the universities. Until then, I'll pray faithfully for miracles to happen.|W|P|113663488285513110|W|P|Beyond Expectations|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com1/03/2006 10:16:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|First day of school for the year 2006 starts tomorrow -isn't that just fantastic? Ugh. NOT. Hello friends and enemies. Bye bye long hours of indulging in cyberspace. The Elocutions. I couldn't care less. Honestly, I don't care about it anymore, but I don't want to make a fool out of myself so... might as well just memorize the whole piece all over again. I really miss someone... Can I say that? Do I even have the right to that? Gah. Finally. The courage to admit it. Yeah, I MISS YOU. Uhh... Who? LOL. Friggin 'I Miss You' by Incubus & 'Blind' by Lifehouse is stuck in my head. To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real To know that you feel the same, as I do, Is a 3-fold utopian dream You do something to me That I can't explain So would I be out of line If I said "I MISS YOU"(?) .... I was young but I wasn't naive I watched hopeless as he turned around to leave And still I have the pain I have to carry A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried And after all this time I never thought we'd be here Never thought we'd be here When my love for you is blind But I couldn't make you see it Couldn't make you see it That I loved you more than you'll ever know And a part of me died when I let you go I would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming That everything would be like it was before But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor dot dot dot [...] A few more months 'till graduation.... Gah.|W|P|113629897285972006|W|P|Major Bummer|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com1/01/2006 01:14:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|Uncle came from the US and ever since then we've been partying nonstop. Sorry. I dont feel like being loaquacious today. New Year's Eve was a drag. I just slept through the night. I know, I'm a loser and I love it. School starts in a few days. I havn't done a single homework yet. Gaahh. Elocutions. FUCK. I lost my piece & I totally forgot what I memorized back then. "Happy New Year." What's 'Happy' about the new year? Pfft.|W|P|113609268975343838|W|P|for the past week.|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com