11/13/2005 05:17:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|I'm going on a... HIATUS.

I have to focus on far more important things at the moment. I'm giving it all I've got. Schoolwork is stressing me out.

Hopefully, I'll be back after our intramurals (December 1 & 2).

Good luck to us in the elimination games. (Let's go BLUE BEARries! HAHA.) To the beautiful people who visit my blog: Be back soon, and, the loser on my tagboard, please ignore IT. (Yes, it's an 'IT', and no, I'm not having any pronoun problems... if you know what I mean.) To the loser on my tagboard: Go ahead. Post all you want. Bash all you want. Flame all you want. HAHA. INTELLGENT PEOPLE DO NOT ARGUE WITH FOOLS. Labo? Hindi. |W|P|113177904119827470|W|P|I'll have a BREAK.|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com11/06/2005 05:21:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|Insatiability. If ever such word would come into existence, that would be the perfect term to associate my current state of being with. Insatiability -the condition or state of being insatiable. Lately, I've been a perfectionist -which is highly unusual for me. You see, I've always been the "happy-go-lucky" type. "Come what may", "Bahala na"... those were the words I'd usually say when something BIG (and I do mean BIG) is about to happen. But now, it's as if everything has to be perfect. Flawless. What brought me to a realization of my change, you might ask... Well, when I was doing the final draft of our cheerleading uniform/jersey, it just... happened. It was like it had to be perfect. A slight error would make me do the whole thing all over again (even when I'm almost done), just for perfection's sake. If ever I'm not satisfied with my work, then perfection itself would not be enough. Perhaps it's not really perfection that I'm after for, but for satisfaction. My own definition of 'perfection defined at its finest'. Oh gosh. What's happening to me? Carla's OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) is definitely contagious. Beware. You have been warned. I don't know what to do with 3000 php. I want a lot of things... I've been eyeing the new iPod NANO but my uncle's gonna give me one for my birthday, so no need to save up for that. Anyway, it's less than a month of wait. I think I can do that. I also want a new book... (A Series of Unfortunate Events, Books 4-12...anyone? lol). I want to go on a movie marathon (Haha. Whatever). Oh! and I want... apple pie! (McDo. Haha. What the-?) Unlimited cravings, limited cash. Hmm... perfectionist, paranoid, insatiable, OC, insomniac... What's next? Good thing I trashed nostalgia... or have I not? Geez. I'm not even sure about myself. I am so weird. I have issues. I even look so weird with my glasses on. as if my issues aren't weird enough. i even look a whole lot weird.|W|P|113117125725601564|W|P|Contemplating can lead to Self-Discovery|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com11/05/2005 03:01:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|
F0RGET HiS NAME - F0RGET HiS FACE F0RGET HiS KiSS &' WARM EMBRACE F0RGET THE THiNGS HE USED T0 SAY REMEMBER N0W HE'S G0NE AWAY ... F0RGET THE THiNGS HE USED T0 D0.. F0RGET THE SHiT HE PUT Y0U THR0UGH.. F0RGET THE L0VE Y0U 0NCE SHARED' F0RGET THE FACT THAT HE 0NCE CARED F0RGET THE WAY HE SAiD Y0UR NAME REMEMBER NOW THiNGS AREN'T THE SAME F0RGET THE TALKS Y0U 0NCE HAD.. F0RGET THE TH0UGHT, iT MAKES Y0U SAD F0RGET THAT Y0U SAiD Y0U W0ULD WAiT REMEMBER N0W, HiS L0VE iS HATE..

Mae's group message via YM. Oh well. Sem break's gonna end in a few days.

Cousin's birthday today.

AGENDA FOR MONDAY:

-Recording -SCRIPT -BALAGTASAN. And... someone's birthday. I have new eyeglasses. Carla (my...beautiful seatmate) "broke" the previous one. HAHA. Nah. It was intentional. It was my very intelligent idea on how to get a new pair of eyeglasses -to have the previous one broken. I told her to break it. Harharharhar.

A snapshot will be posted later, if I feel like doing so.

Bow.

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Uploaded a new layout. I dunno why I made a new one though. Still don't have a pic with my glasses. Probably tomorrow. =P

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|W|P|113107627958987607|W|P|For Blogging's Sake|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com11/01/2005 09:07:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|A marathon of updates. Yes. It's the boredom speaking. Isn't that obvious? New goal in life: Never be dramatic. Ever. I'm trying. :) Really. Ugh. It's hard to be ... or try to be someone you're not. It's hard to claim something that's not really yours. It's hard to let go of something that makes you happy... but hurts you even more. It's hard to be rational when emotions blind your decisions. It's hard to think straight. Ugh. WHY? My friends are right.... my "unusual level" of thinking only works in the field of academics. But... when it comes to real-life-problems, emotions blind my actions. I don't do what I think will be right. My actions do not respond to my thinking. It responds to how I feel. Ugh. Tanga. Give me something strong enough to hold on. Give me something strong enough to lean on. Happy Halloween everyone.|W|P|113075274414936495|W|P|Spontaneous blogging.|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com