5/30/2005 12:37:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|My head fucking hurts. Its probably because I havn't had any decent sleep for 6 consecutive nights (& still counting). For the past 6 nights, I can only manage to get a maximum of 4 hrs of sleep. MAXIMUM na yan. See? my insomnia really is getting the best of me. And the cause of my insomnia... is HE. I'm worried about him. About US. I really dunno what's happening. He isn't telling me anything. Well he did but... AAHHH!! Its all fuckingly fucked up right now. We fuckingly need to talk. Binigla nya ako. Ang ganda-ganda na dati, 'bat biglang nagkaganito? It came without warning. I prepared for something like this but I never expected something like this to happen. I dunno if I make sense right now. But simply put, NABIGLA AKO. +++++++++ Some quizzes I took the other day... stufff You are the Spirit of Hope. Whenever someone is feeling down, they merely have to think of you to make them happy again. You have the ability to simply radiate happiness. You can make friends quickly because your strong point is your amazingly friendly nature which naturally people want to be with. You think about the best in everything, a total optimist, you won't have any trouble getting a worthy person to shae your life with! Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!) brought to you by Quizilla Aba... HAHA... talaga lang ah... Assassin

You are an assassin. That means you are a professional and do your job without mixing any emotions in it. In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person, trying to forget your pain and past. You are the person who never seems to care and that is why being an assassin fits you good. Atleast, that's what people think. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get to noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't like being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her. Main weapon: Sniper Quote: "The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures] brought to you by Quizilla Uii... HAHA... Assassin... parang ung Job ng character ko dati sa Ragnarok Online. Ehehe... Ala lang... =)
Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
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How will you commit suicide?You will slash your throat
How many tries will it take?92
When will you commit suicide?May 28, 2010
What will your suicide note say?This broken heart will never mend, so never shall I breathe again
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I love the result! paradise kiss boy You are the bad boy / girl of your school. You have little faith in yourself and usually find escape in some sort of addicting substance or yourself. You would rather torture others above anything else. You regularly skip school and when you go, always tend to ditch a certain class. Some classmates can fear you while others pity you...and your family. (No offense) Your cruel behavior and abject personality tends to single you out from the crowd...and you prefer life this way at times. However, lonliness can rear its ugly head and force you seek a way to silence it. But be warned, your path is dangerous... but only a strong person can walk this road.

Some ideal occupations for you can be a Police officer, Celebrity (who doesn't love the badasses?), Wrestler, Polotician, or some sort of leader. Either way, your destined to be known by many. What type of teenager are you? brought to you by Quizilla Uhhhh. I ... quite don't agree with this one. +++++++

I DAMN DON'T LIKE WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS HAPPENING.

|W|P|111732985890554399|W|P|biglaan|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/28/2005 12:34:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|LSS. Mood Swings. Restlessness. INSOMNIA. Oh yes. I've been experiencing those for the past 4 consecutive days. While listening to a certain radio station, & suddenly a song gets played, then the song hit me pretty hard, I'll then have a hard time trying to remove it from my head. (I'm thinking too much. Oh yes. I am.) This is known as the Last Song Syndrome, commonly known as the so-called "LSS". While having the song repeated over & over again in my head, I suddenly get all emotional & stuff. Its killing me. I am saying this now based from experience. Last Monday (May 23.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA & DIANNE! ), while at a review class at MSA, suddenly the song.... Screaming Infidelities.... just played in my head.... I was all ... errr... should I say.... "Happy" before that happened... then... BOOM. The song hit me. I started to think about certain things again. From "Happy", I go to "(insert-whatever-shitty-feeling-here)". Thus, because of these "thoughts", I become restless just by thinking of "those". I can hardly sleep. Insomnia gets the best of me. 12am-4am sleep. HA! Beat that. *sigh* The wonders of PARANOIA indeed. IKAW kasi! Ginagawa mo akong paranoid. Ugh. At least pumasa ako sa Dry-run ng MSA ngayon. .....Despite the fact that I havn't got any decent sleep for 4 nights. Amazing.|W|P|111720032928081756|W|P|the wonders of paranoia....|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/23/2005 04:08:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|Napaaga ang pagbalik ko. Bored kasi eh. Saka di naman ako masyadong concentrated dyan sa putanginang review na yan. Pano kasi... May mga bagay-bagay na naglalaro sa aking isipan. OO. Isa na sya dun. Nawawala na ang communication namin. Busy lang daw sya. Pagod. Ewan ko.... Parang lumalayo na sakin. Tapos... baka mamaya eh noh... mabalitaan ko nalang... Sila na pala. Ampf. . . . Amazing. Ok pa naman kami nung Monday. (BIRTHDAY NI MAE! May 16.). Tapos nung pumunta sa orientation ng La Salle.... Kaboom. Ayun. It disappeared. Like magic! *weeehhh* 2nd monthsary namin kahapon. Pero.... wala eh. Hanggang ngayon. Wala masyadong communication. Nawala. NagkakaLSS na ako sa kantang Screaming Infidelities. "and as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs & sit alone & wonder... how you're making out." Pero... hindi naman siguro gagawin ni Desi sakin un. ABANGAN. [saka na matinong update. im really bothered right now.]|W|P|111673805230270104|W|P|I AM SO BACK.|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/08/2005 03:36:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion50%
Stability56%
Orderliness36%
Empathy30%
Interdependence43%
Intellectual56%
Mystical50%
Artistic50%
Religious70%
Hedonism30%
Materialism36%
Narcissism50%
Adventurousness90%
Work ethic43%
Self absorbed63%
Conflict seeking50%
Need to dominate70%
Romantic56%
Avoidant90%
Anti-authority63%
Wealth36%
Dependency43%
Change averse50%
Cautiousness76%
Individuality70%
Sexuality50%
Peter pan complex76%
Physical security70%
Food indulgent36%
Histrionic36%
Paranoia30%
Vanity23%
Hypersensitivity70%
Female cliche30%
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Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting. trait snapshot: messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract, impractical, unproductive, leisurely, likes the unknown

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Amazing. It says Im messy, disorganized, not rule consious, rebellious, weird, etc. etc... HAHA. Coolness!

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|W|P|111544002897431166|W|P|Ahaha. check this out.|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/07/2005 12:29:00 PM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|I LOVE YOU ARISTIDES PANGAN PANLILIO II Ok. Im back in my normal state of mind. Hey... that actually felt good... isa pa nga... ARISTIDES PANGAN PANLILIO II! I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH!!! Kay. Enough. This is my blog anyway. I can post whatever I want. HAHAHA. Alright. This is getting too weird.|W|P|111538565296313422|W|P|kape! im screaming it! rawr... LoL|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/06/2005 12:25:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|

Sagittarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in dates You're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewards You've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet Your negative traits: Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurts You're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person Your ideal partner: Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you whenever Is creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of you Is bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on Your dating style: Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up. Your seduction style: Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom. Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try. Spritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldy act. Tips for the future: Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better. It's not all about you. Focus on your parnter's needs every once and a while. Make up your mind about your parnter, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise. Best place to meet someone online: American Singles - tons of flirting and fun to suite your inner extrovert Best color to attract mate: Purple Best day for a date: Thursday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
*naka italic ung i-believe-it-really-applies-to-me.|W|P|111525573862940739|W|P|im suprised at how this -almost- accurately turned out. amazement.... =)|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com5/04/2005 01:15:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|this be d s i, wala kami magawa ngaung umaga... wala mablog at wala maisip gawin, so we decided na ako magupdate sakanya at cya magupdate para saakin, so here i am now.. though it feels kinda different. ayun, so ayon sakanya kahapon, nothing much happened except for the fact na pumunta cya sa bahay ng pinsan nya para mag laro ng badminton, tumambay.. at manuod ng horror flicks.. haha! thats about it.. and yeah pinuyat nya ako kagabi, hehe may kaligayahan nanaman kasi pinaguusapan namin kagabi! wakekeke! =) [EDIT by AYETH] Si ayeth na 'to. dsi kasi kung ano-ano naiisip. palit daw kami ng blog na i-uupdate. Anyway... Nakita ko 'tong quiz na 'to sa site ni Ate Ia, kaya sinubukan ko. AHAHA.
Your Love Style is Storge
For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind (You've been known to still have connections with exes) But sometimes your love is not the most passionate Leap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave
Un lang. Period. [/EDIT BY AYETH]|W|P|111508329208858510|W|P|ano nga ba? palit kumbaga...|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com