10/22/2004 11:28:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|:+:FORGIVE ME:+: to all those whom i have offended iRL.. pls forgive me... I know how wrong ihave been.. & to those ppl whom I have hurt so badly.. (whateverrr).. I'm sorry... :+:Insatiable-ness:+: the exams are coming up... & so is the time for the submission of projects... argh... hnd ko na alm kung ano uunahin ko... ... but, I WANT TO BE BETTER THAN I WAS.. I'm so not satisfied just being in the top 3 anymore, although I dont care about the class ranks, I cant help it. The pressure just naturally gets into me. Ayoko rin na tinatapakan ako ng ibang tao... at hinding hindi ko matatangap na magkaron ng 82 below sa card, lalong lalo na line of 7. Today, when we had our long test in L.T. (Leadership Training- another term for which is C.A.T.).. I cant believe I got low scores (18/30). I should have been 22/30 if only if it wasnt for that freakin '-ing'. amf talaga. nakakainis. I know I can do better than that. Kung nag seserioso lang ako. :+:Time to get SERIOUS:+: I remember way back in my first year, I was able to get high scores. It made me realize one thing. That one thing which I have lost as I got into the later years of high school. Way back in first year, I had a GOAL, I was DETERMINED to be the best I can be. But, as I ascended, I lost it. Parang ngayon, ayus lang sakin na wala akong homework... etc... I became LAZY. yes. But because of my constantly getting of low scores, & with the "competition" getting harder. I was once again determined to be the best that I can be. I know I can. I know I'm smart. I'm just lazy. So now.. Its time to get serious on my studies. I want to get into a good college. I want to be someone in the future. I want to get an award when I graduate in highschool. You know what they say: "When the competition gets tough, the tough gets going". :+:Second thoughts...:+: But can I be serious?? argh.. for heaven's sake, I'm only 13!!!!.. There should be a lot going on about my life... THERE'S RAGNAROK.. I want to be serious, but can I do it? Maybe I can if I'll try. I'll use my low grades (with my insatiable-ness.. ^_^) as a source of inspiration to get higher grades. Then there's my ate Aiza.. she's a smart college kid.. always studying. CAUSE SHE WANTS TO HAVE A GOOD FUTURE. (hey, just because my future's secured doesnt mean I dont have to study to get high grades anymore. tssssk). TODAY'S EVENTS: *ok.. so much for my thoughts... * -MARA CORDIAL'S BDAY!!!! haha! 15 ka naaa!!!! -We were noisy as usual.. heh.. -Mr. Mayor was absent so I (as the vice mayor =P) get the chance to do the parliamentary procedure. -did Erika (class secretary) placed me in the parliamentary ntbk as "eating inside the classroom" again (for the... 6th time)??? Wag naman sana.. baka pag-sulatin na ako ni Mr. Alegrid ng kung ano-anong letters (incident report, apology letter.. etc) -Czarina, Anne, Albert, Hans, & I, were goofing around while Ms. Patay (filipino teacher) was discussing.. buti hindi kami napagalitan sa sobrang ingay namin.. ^_^ - Mr. Alegrid gave us again a "heart warming" sermon about us not returning the reply slips of the project kaibigan thingy.. Then there's Albert. The biggest CONTRASTor ever. Sa lahat nalang may reklamo sya... hay naku... I STILL HAVE TO DO MY ARTICLES... OMFG!!!! .. Yohann's gonna get angry again >_< .. oohhh... long post... Ang saya-saya!!!! Btw, I WILL be going to CDSL next week... kahit na exams... heh.. |W|P|109836128116938593|W|P||W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com10/21/2004 11:32:00 AM|W|P|Ayeth Pajanel|W|P|grabe... tagal ko di nag blog dito.. heh.. tgnan nyo nlng ung xanga ko kei?! heh... anyway... kakatapos lang ikasal ni kuya popoy.. susunod nmn si ate rose... grabe tlga... hay naku... cant tell much right now cause my mum's making me layas in front of the pc.. & before... sabog ung editing box ng blogger... that's why i was updating my xanga... oh well... |W|P|109827514162965139|W|P|...|W|P|aaaaayeth@gmail.com